I still have some replies and stuff to do, but I think I’ve spammed your dashes enough for the night. :D :D :D I’d hoped to get a bit more fanart posting in, but it’s a little late in the night for that now, so I will get back to that tomorrow!
(I think I’m also going to detour into KLK liveblogging before tackling SMC ep 6-7 again, but they’re all hovering at the top of my to-do list!)
ALL RIGHT, MASS EFFECT 2 TALK TIME. SOME SPOILERS FOR JUST UP TO THE IFF MISSION.
I finished Jacob’s loyalty mission, which was the last one I had to do and, jfc, that was fucked up as hell. I kept waiting for some semi-explanation for it to make it at least a little more complicated and then just… wow, that’s fucked up. God, it’s a wonder Jacob turned out to be reasonably well-adjusted at all! (I really, really like Jacob a lot, btw. ♥)
I also did the Overlord mission and GOOD GOD WHY DID I DO THAT. Well. To be fair, by the end, it had some really interesting stuff and another fucked up ending (as was expected) and I’m glad to have done it for the credits, experience, and upgrades, but jfc. Those Hammerhead parts were the worst.
My least favorite part of the first game was driving around in the Mako, why on earth would you bring something like that back? And then make it even more unwieldy?? And you had to flying that fucking thing around THREE TIMES until you’d finished everything! Halfway through that mission, I wanted nothing more than for it to just fucking end already, but, NO, I HAD TO KEEP GOING.
Thankfully, I never had to do any one part more than three or four times, though, that geth cannon can go fuck itself, that thing was obnoxious as fuck. I got the hang of it pretty quickly, but still. Fuck off, geth cannon!
I’m partways into the IFF retrieval mission, but not enough to really have any thoughts on it yet, I was mostly busy finding out what happened to Jacob’s fucked up dad and what happened in that fucked up Overlord mission.
I didn’t even think about her looks being not her own! I always knew she looked similar to Usagi, but her being Usagi’s decoy and the similarity just hit me. My baby ;A;
Yeah. ;__; And with Sailor Ceres looking kind of a lot like Chibi-Usa, I like to think it’s a built-in thing with the women of the moon kingdom at their Sailor Senshi. It’s not the worst thing ever, they still have their own personalities and their own lives and their own dreams, but there’s that extra layer of duty and how their entire sense of self was shaped by the person they’re most loyal to.
Who they would choose to do this for, I firmly believe! But, at the same time, it’s got to be hard to be a mirror of someone else. ;__;
Well, after seeing this live blog, I want to see you react to episode 6 and 7. XD
I am definitely going to get to them soon! Probably not tomorrow, I think half of the fandom would rise up in mutiny if I did another day full of liveblogging, but I think I’ve definitely found a lot of my passion back for SMC! :D :D :D
So completely in tune with this. Damn it, your posts give me feels! Damn all that be I want them with Endymion. F*** the rules, they can sleep till Crystal Tokyo but no “ends”
(re: the Shitennou having been stolen from Endymion and never getting un-brainwashed)
While, okay, maybe I probably would put them into the story if we were living in my dream world, BUT, in this world we actually live in, I don’t necessarily even want them as part of the main story! Just… I want them to be revived in the 30th Century, they can hang out in Mamoru’s rock garden until either he or Usagi are strong enough to revive them.
IT IS MY BELIEF THAT THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT HAPPENS AND NOBODY CAN TAKE IT AWAY FROM ME.
I loooove the idea of the handmaiden body double in media. Though here, still love it, it makes me hurt for Minako. You’re no longer a normal girl, and you fight evil, and you’re the leader, and you’re a decoy.
One of the things that I really love is when various incarnations of Sailor Moon touch on how the girls balance their personal lives with their duty to their princess, how that balance can be really tough and really sad sometimes, even as this is never something they would want to give up, they want to protect Usagi.
I remember being really touched by the whole, “We have to live as much of our dreams as we can right now, while there’s still time to do so before we become Sailor Soldiers full time!” and that’s something that breaks my heart for all of them, but especially Minako.
She’s so dedicated and she knows so very well that she’s not a normal girl anymore, she’s known that for a long time, longer than any of them. And that’s a lot of why she later becomes so OTT about chasing after typical teenage dreams, because she had so much time devoted to this cause and she knows that she’s not going to get this time back and that eventually it’ll demand her attention full time.
Then you add in how she’s a decoy for Usagi and she gladly takes on that responsibility, because she would do anything for her princess, Minako is the one (even more than Rei, I think) who knows exactly what the more difficult side of all this entails. She’s the one who knows what it means to go up against this enemy, she’s the one who knows that some shit is going to go down here (and this is why Minako’s badass moments are so good for me, because she fucking knows that this is necessary, she is prepared to do whatever’s necessary), and she’s the one who knows that a decoy is necessary, to buy Usagi more time.
Minako will take that burden so no one else has to, but it’s still something that’s taken away from her. Her life is never really her own, probably even her appearance is not wholly her own.
Her dreams are her own, but she’s the most aware of how fragile and fleeting those dreams can be. She’ll get better about this, of course. And, as she gets to know Usagi, as she learns to rely on her friends, she’ll loosen up about this and some of that silliness will become a lot more real, she’ll start actually having fun and enjoy being a goof and teasing her friends.
Minako’s life is about to get so much better! But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to cry for how much she’s given up of her life because of her duty, even as she glady does it for the others. ;__;
These two will be the death of me, I swear.
Christ, I know, right? I am just having so many goddamned feelings for these two and next week is gonna be even worse.
HOLY SHIT, SOMEBODY NEEDS TO COME OVER HERE AND HOLD ME
BECAUSE I CANNOT FUCKING DEAL
AND I CANNOT FUCKING WAIT
I AM GOING TO NEED SOMEONE TO HOLD MY FUCKING HAND THE ENTIRE TIME BECAUSE OTHERWISE I AM GOING TO EXPLODE FROM OTP FEELINGS
SO EXCITED SO EXCITED SO EXCITED GIVE ME THIS SCENE ALREADY I NEED IT TO LIVE
You know what this means, right? MAMORU SHIELDING HER AND GETTING HURT IN KUNZITE’S ATTACK, PRINCESS SERENITY IS COMING THE FUCK UP NEXT, YESSSSSS.
Once again, this isn’t about taking her place, but about shielding her, about protecting her, about saving her. This is what he can do for her, to take the hit for her, because his instincts just scream at him to protect her, do whatever he can to help her, to keep her from getting hurt.
It’s never about taking her out of the fight, it’s never about saying she should step aside, it’s never about him saying that he’s stronger than her. It’s about shielding her with his own body to protect her from a hit that would have hurt her, because she shows such strength of character and he wants to match that, however he can.
He’s inspired by her, he just got done saying she’s so strong today, and then he turns around and wants to be strong enough to help her, too. He’s not pushing her out of the way, he’s stepping in front of the attack, he’s acting as her shield, and oh my god I am SO HERE FOR THIS.
I am here for Mamoru being driven by the need to help her, I am so here for how he does it, and I am going to be SO FUCKING HERE for when Usagi breaks out the big guns because of it.
I know what comes next but OMG LOOK AT USAGI JUST FUCKING GO
SHE JUST FLEW RIGHT UP THERE AND LOOKED READY TO KICK SOME FUCKING ASS
SHE’S ALREADY GROWING UP SO MUCH FROM THAT CRYBABY GIRL IN THE EARLY PARTS, SHE’S GETTING SO MUCH STRONGER
AND YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HOW IMPORTANT USAGI’S EMOTIONAL JOURNEY IS TO ME IN THIS SERIES, OKAY
LOOK AT THIS SCENE
How he’s always seeing these different sides of her, how he’s seeing the loud girl who bumps into him on the street and gets embarrassed about it, how he’s seeing the girl who smiles and has fun at a part, how he’s seeing this girl who loves hanging out with her friends, how he’s seeing this girl who has trouble in the fights she faces, and now.
Now he’s seeing this girl who is getting stronger, who can stand up better than the last time and that she’ll probably be even better the next, who is determined to face this enemy now, instead of crying (which is totally understandable!) about it.
AND THAT JUST MAKES HIM WANT TO GET TO KNOW HER BETTER.
THAT SHE HAS ALL THESE DIFFERENT ASPECTS TO HER
THAT SHE’S SHOWING THIS STRENGTH THAT HE’S NEVER SEEN BEFORE
HE WANTS TO KNOW MORE ABOUT HER WHEN SEEING THIS SIDE OF HER
HOLY CHRIST, THAT WAS AMAZING
THAT KISS WAS THE MOST AMAZING SHOUJO THING I HAVE EVER SEEN
AND IT LASTED FOREVER
(AND NOT LONG ENOUGH, I WOULD WATCH AN ENTIRE HALF HOUR OF THESE TWO ANGEL DARLINGS MAKING OUT WITH EACH OTHER)
AND IT WAS SO GORGEOUS
YOU GUYS, I CAN’T DEAL WITH MY FEELINGS OVER MY OTP, SEND HELP