Tuesday, May 29, 2012

chenipan said:

Now just wait until you get to the second half—I’ve noticed a lot more ship tease there, if that entices you at all! And yeah, Ferio/Fuu is probably one of my favourites, god, they’re cuties. ;__;

Knowing that there’s more ship tease in the latter half definitely makes me curious to get there!  I genuinely do enjoy adorable friendship, I’m definitely having a lot of feelings for Umi especially, but I can’t lie that shipping is where I really get my fannish energy from.  orz  (Ferio/Fuu is so cute and I just want them to hold hands and be adorable forever already!!  ;__; )

mochibuni said:

Oh man, third volume is a killer. :((((( I didn’t really start shipping until the second part of the series, but the cartoon is way more shippy than the comic.

Noooooo, stop tempting me, you’re terrible!  I have things to do today first!!  But… now I want to read volume 3… and watch the anime….  ;__;

dragonofwinternights said:

I swear I compulsivelylike over half of what you post each day, your tumblr is so ~joyful~ (even with the moments of angst HI SUBARU) I grin pre-emptively whenever I see your icon show up on my dash. Thank you for continually making my day brighter!

UGH, YOU ARE THE SWEETEST, TOO.  And I’m so glad to be posting content you’re interested in AND that I can make your day brighter!  And especially glad that my tumblr is a joyful place for you!  I definitely understand where a lot of negativity in fandom comes from but I do often find myself wishing that more people would put in as much positivity as they put in negativity.  And, well, if I’m going to wish for that, I’d better start with myself then!  So, thank you, that means a lot to me, too.  ♥

Aww you’re such a sweetie I swear. KEEP BEING AWESOME.

This is really reassuring to me as well, thank you!  Because I keep thinking, I POST A LOT OF NON-CLAMP THINGS, I DON’T ALWAYS ADD MUCH TO HER DISCUSSIONS, HOW LONG BEFORE UNKNOWNUSERNAME HAS HAD ENOUGH OF ME?? and then I would be sad because asdflkjaslkj your posts are amazing and you have done so much to help me remember all my CLAMP feels.

haha, i hate to drag on the love fest too much, but you’re one of my favorite blogs too. i think the only negative thought i’ve ever had about your so-called “spam” is “OH NO I MISS CARDCAPTOR SAKURA SO MUCH WAAAAH.” i love your tumblr because it’s always reminding me of old series i used to love AND giving me new series that I know I’m going to love. plus you’re always so positive and thoughtful! <3

Well, Idon’t hate dragging it out, so everyone else can just fuck off if they’re getting annoyed by this point.  ;)  And this was especially lovely to hear because, oh, yes, that is so much of what I hope to accomplish!  Sure, introducing new series is always fun and awesome, because new series give me so many new feels and I want to share that, because feels shared are feels doubled!  But also!  The love I have for older series is still there and the greatest thing about tumblr is finding fans who share that affection.  You guys seriously don’t know how much the tumblr Sailor Moon fandom means to me!  Or how wonderful its been that THERE ARE OTHER SLAYERS FANS OUT THERE!  And active CLAMP fans! 

And, true, I have often complained about the negativity on tumblr, but I have found so much more positiveness here and if I am positive in return, it’s because tumblr has given me so many reasons to be.  I LOVE YOU ALL, NOW GIVE ME YOUR SLEEVES TO BLOW MY FACE ON.

WHILE ALL OF THIS IS UNDERSTANDABLE YOU ARE ONE OF MY FAVORITE BLOGS AND PEOPLE AND I WILL NEVER UNFOLLOW YOUUUUUUUUU

AHHHH, SHUT UP, NO, STOP IT, YOU’RE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY.  I GET REALLY EMOTIONAL OVER THIS SORT OF THING.  And I’m really touched that you feel that way and seeing your comments always makes me smile and gets me excited to talk with you, so now I’m just going to melt into goop on your shoes.  Hope they weren’t ones you needed to keep nice.  :D

Girl, I adore everything you post, even from the fandoms I don’t follow. I’ve never once thought “Geez I wish this spam would end” . You keep doing what you’re doing and we’ll keep loving it.

Instead of interpreting this as, “….YET.  I haven’t made you wish a spam would end YET, IT’LL PROBABLY HAPPEN AS SOON AS I’M DONE TYPING THIS.”, I am instead going to choose to say, “THANK YOU, THAT IS SO SWEET OF YOU.”  (Did you see my clever way of getting both in there?  Did you, did you?  It was totally clever and subtle.)

I’m really glad that you’ve enjoyed so much of what I’ve posted, that you’ve never felt anything went on too long, because that’s something I’ve been trying to keep in mind—as much as I would happily post 30 pictures in a row of an obscure manga, I figure it’s better to spread them out across a few days instead.  Also, there’s just so much out there that’s so pretty and I only get ~80 uploads a day, I HAVE TO RATION CAREFULLY EVERY DAY.  IT’S SO HAAAAARD.

*squishes*  And thank you again for the lovely note, I’m all warm and fuzzy on the inside now.

alittlemisscurious said:

How can you doubt!?! You have more followers than both my blogs combined and I’m pretty sure more than one person worships the ground you blog on..

OH GOD THIS IS GOING TO GET WAY TOO NAVEL-GAZING, I CAN FEEL IT EVEN BEFORE I START.  Whatever, I talk about myself as much as I want to!  I DO WHAT I WANT.  *fidgets*

I have an incessant, nagging “OH MY GOD I AM GETTING ON EVERYONE’S NERVES, THERE ARE LEGIONS OF PEOPLE OUT THERE JUST WAITING TO SCHADENFREUDE IT UP WHEN I DO SOMETHING BAD” feeling that never goes away.  You know, when I think anyone notices that I exist at all!  A lot of that is just purely my own brain chemistry that’s always telling me how worthless and annoying I am, that part of me that I’m forever working on getting over, but it still seeps through a lot.

But part of it is also my fandom history, how I have had my fair share of unpopular opinions or views on fandom, how I continue to have a lot of strong opinions on things, how I’ve been in fandoms where I know people have hated me.  (Thanks, Prince of Tennis fandom.  Truly.  *wry*)
  And not all of it is undeserved, I was a horrible brat years ago.  So, I’m always waiting for the other shoe to drop, for people to realize, oh, no, she’s a jerk and we all hate her and she’s not good at anything, etc.

Which is not me fishing for compliments or reassurance (this time), I promise.  *g*  Because I’ve gotten better over the years, I’ve had a lot of practice at pulling myself out of those thoughts.  But it is something I know a lot of people suffer through as I do (and how fun is it that it gets layered up with, “Well, you don’t have it as bad as other people, so STOP COMPLAINING, because now you’re just whining and you’re going to be a burden to everyone.” and making you feel like shit because your problems aren’t BAD ENOUGH? that’s always some fun times right there) and it’s something I want to be open about, why I sometimes respond the way I do and why I appreciate the amazing and friendly comments, why you all are THE BEST for me.

I’ll probably always get pulled back to the “Is anyone even enjoying having me around?” thoughts or sometimes I will go fishing for reassurances, “YOU GUYS LIKE ME, RIGHT?  TELL ME YOU LIKE ME, PLEASE.” (which I think is fine—good on me for recognizing when I need a little reassurance!  XD)  Because my head can look at the comments I get or the notes I get or my follower count and go, “You should appreciate what you have!  You’re lucky and people totally like you.” but my heart will still go, “Yeah, but that doesn’t MEAN ANYTHING and THEY SECRETLY HATE YOU AND ARE ONLY FOLLOWING YOU FOR NEFARIOUS PURPOSES.” and I have to tell it to shut up.  XD

And, of course, I’m saying all this with humor and I’m in a balanced place today, I just got… thoughtful, I guess.  And apparently, in a chatty mood.  SO, YOU’RE WELCOME FOR THAT.  :D

YOU ARE FREAKING ONE OF MY FAVORITE BLOGS NOW!!! OMG!!! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

Oh, gosh, thank you!  I’m so glad you’re enjoying it!  Every once in awhile I get one of those “UGH, IS ANYONE EVEN ENJOYING ALL THIS SPAM ON THEIR DASHES ANYMORE?” feelings and your note came along at the perfect time to boost me up, so I really appreciate it.  ♥

I started reading MKR and, boy, that was a great decision! Thanks for your input on the different translations, considering that I might have been too paranoid to try it out if that weren’t the case. I hate that it seems to have left less of an impression on you, because I’ve grown to love it!

I’m glad to have influenced you and I’m delightedthat you’ve taken to it!  I do wish MKR had pulled me in harder than it has so far, but I suspect part of it is that I know myself and, as much as I love plot and friendships and everything, without a ship to really hook me, I’m a hard sell.  Ferio/Fuu definitely got me RIGHT IN THE FEELINGS, but then he hared off and I’m left with ADORABLE FRIENDSHIP THAT I LOVE but it doesn’t make me want to seek out fic or anything.

I am seriously enjoying the “lololol we love video game tropes, let’s put a bunch in!!” atmosphere the whole manga has, because that’s pretty excellent.  And I have only read the first two volumes, so there’s still time for it to grow on me a lot! XD